Birthday & Fortune telling !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEAN HU !

Happy 20th Birthday my awesome friend!
You know what.. You're really really nice..
And i'm really touched by the things you've done for me during that period of time.
I don't have the intention to hurt you at all you know..
I don't know whether wishing you is a good thing or bad thing.
Cause maybe you've forgotten about me and because of this wish,
i've made you remember the painful past again.
Trust me.. Whoever your girlf is, She's very lucky cause you're simply great(:
And lastly I really hope that you'll forgive me..
Happy birthday my dear friend! Hope that you've enjoyed yourself today(:
(Your fav colour is brown right?(: )




Went to fortune telling in the evening..
And guess what..I sucks..
I'm actually the main cause of my parents broken marriage..
At that point of time i really wish i was never born..
Not only that.. I might be the one destroying my dad's career..
Why am i such a jinx...
Worst or the worst.. I will have two marriage and first one won't work out
simply because my hubby will have an affair outside...
WTH man... Did i did smth terribly wrong in my pass life?

Yeah not everything is bad.. I'm a very independent girl and will be a good leader
(good leader? what bullshit is that lol) and because of independent, i'll tend to think alot.
Way too much than what i should. (which is bad because it's all negative)
I'll be successful in my career in the future..
But you know what.. I rather have a happy family than a successful career..
After what happened to my parents i told myself i'll never become like that in the future
My own family won't become like that in the future..
But knowing that all this will happen.. You know how heart broken i actually was..?
Knowing that my marriage will fail for the first time..
And if i have a child knowing my child will have to dad..
You know how it feels!?
SIMPLY HORRIBLE! That's why sometimes..things are better left unspoken.
Knowing that..Yet can't do anything to stop it..
Or should i say i won't even consider getting marry?
I don't know.. I'm really lost now..