Heart Broken

I'm sorry the this emotionally post that i'm posting today.
You might wanna give it a miss for this post(:

It's been 3Months since we broke up.
This is the 4th month without you on 20th.
This is the 4th Month that 20th become just another ordinary date.
I know everything will turn out this way it's all my fault.
Stupid and fucked up me, didn't treasure and cherish you.
But it's all over.. Now that you've got someone new,
You have my blessing. It hurts to say this but i sincerely want you to be happy.
Even if its not with me..
I'll try my best to move on and put down the past.
Honestly i'm tired of it alr..
Everytime 19th night and whole day of 20th i've always been falling apart
I hope will be strong and start walking on my on soon
With a smile on my face telling myself shirley you finally did it.

I've got a few good friends telling me, it's okay to cry.
But promise me that it wont be for long.
I promise it wont be for long alright(:
Here's a song from pixie lott that really describe me now.
Enjoy the song alright(:




Lyrics:
I don't know how to turn it all around
When I feel hopeless
Can't see my way out
Now I'm so low how will I ever get back up
When I am broken
And I've just had enough

Pick up the pieces and I'll put myself back together
Crying it out there’s no doubt that this got to get better

[Chorus]
And it’s alright
To go in and let you’re tears fall down
When everything crashes to the ground
And it’s alright
No one ever makes it out alive
Everybody hurts sometimes
T-i-i-i-i-i-i-mes

It’s so hard not to let emotion burge
Turn my head upside down on a thread, huhu
Cut me loose so I can stanch fade up again
I feel love is bitter empty space

Pick up the pieces and I’ll put myself back together
Crying it out there’s no doubt that this got to get better

[Chorus]
And it’s alright
To go in and let you’re tears fall down
When everything crashes to the ground
And it’s alright
No one ever makes it out alive
Everybody hurts sometimes
T-i-i-i-i-i-i-mes
Sometimes
T-i-i-i-i-i-i-mes

So when you’re stuck and can’t move on
You’re allowed to cry, we all get hurt sometimes

And it’s alright
To go in and let you’re tears fall down
When everything crashes to the ground (no, no, no)
And it’s alright
No one ever makes it out alive
Everybody hurts sometimes
T-i-i-i-i-i-i-mes
Sometimes
T-i-i-i-i-i-i-mes

Ooh wooow sometimes Ooh